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i am not hungry.
i am not hungry.
i am not hungry.

It's about time someone punched Perez Hilton in the face.

I wish people would stop being so fucking judgmental. Okay, its human nature, I get it. But its not hard to stop being so close minded and make the effort to get to know someone before you decide who they are without even speaking to them.

I've finally gotten to a point where they will never, ever hurt me again. This is the last time they will dissappoint me. As hard as it might be, I am avoiding this person at all costs. They're getting all their shit back, and I'm going to live my life without ever having to care about them.

Where were you
When everything was falling apart?

I got my laptop! It's kind of the most awesome thing EVER. Haha.

What else has been happening? I'm pretty sure I will hear whether I got that job this week, which is exciting, but is also making me kind of nervous. I really, really want this job so much.

I've bought a few cute items of clothing, some new make up, a bag and a new wallet.... Yeah, I love student bonus' and stimulus packages!

Tomorrow my Mum and I are going to go get a quote for the tattoo I want, and then going to this awesome little retro shop which I haven't been to in ages.

Things are pretty sweet right now.

Tell me this misery is temporary. I need to know there's good to come, after all of this is said and done. Maybe it will never end. Maybe I'll surrender. Get down on my knees and admit that I am beaten. Tears are streaming down my face, I am weak and I have nothing left to give. I've destroyed all that is good in my life so I can feed the beast. Or starve it. The monster in my head is very demanding, and a perfectionist. I am nothing but a mere slave to the disease. Then there's those who think they understand. Do you really know what it's like? To have such a ridiculous, complex, and hate-filled relationship with something so simple as food? The people that say they understand don't have a fucking clue. My heart pounds so hard it feels like it's going to beat out of my chest...

In my dreams, he bleeds to death. I'm crying as I try to hold up a lifeless body. I'm crumbling beneath him.

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

I AM A FUCKING IDIOT.

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